Episode Thirteen – Fernando is shunned by Jehovah’s Witnesses


One of the hallmarks of growing up as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses is that feeling that you’re never “good enough”. It drives a lot of the depression seen in the cult, and is often something that people that leave take with them. Imagine if instead of just feeling less than because maybe you aren’t hitting some goal of hours spent knocking on doors or taking care of responsibilities in the congregation that are expected of you the problem was something as personal and natural as your sexuality. In this episode we get an intimate look into what it’s like to be gay growing up as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses and it’s impact on Fernando, which I’m sure reflects at least parts of the experiences of many others.

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The song that Fernando chose to represent his journey, a song that he would listen to after arguing with his family about JW topics while he drove away, is Ride by Lana Del Ray.

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All music performed by Podington Bear.

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8 thoughts on “Episode Thirteen – Fernando is shunned by Jehovah’s Witnesses”

  1. Hello Fernando,

    I feel so sorry for the things you had to go through. The hammer and forge and be cruel, but the pounding and the heat make us what we are, we go in as one thing and come out as something new.

    It sounds like you’ve come out and into a good place now and that makes me happy.

    Once I became a Father I was terrified of him being a homosexual, not because I had problem with it, but precisely the exact opposite, I knew I would be fine with it but as a JW Father I would have to make a choice either stick with the Father part of my title or the JW part. I was never sure of how his Mom or her whole side of the family would react, but I knew I’d probably keep the Father part and drop the JW part. If that ever is the case how can you not just love your child and support them over something that I always felt was born in them. That was one of the first times I knew something had become more important to me than my faith.

    Who knows it may or may not ever be the case, but at least I don’t have to dread or worry and fret over having my hand forced to make a decision about what I will do if it does become the case…. I don’t have to do anything. Everything can just stay the same! You’re my son and I love you and support unconditionally! I get to just be a loving father.

    I wish you had that kind of support. Father’s are a tricky thing. Like Mike said, (and knows) you did deserve that, every kid deserves that, a Father’s love so safe and secure they carry it around with them as if it were tucked in their back pocket. But the cycle stops with us. At least we get to be that for our kids now.

    Closing thoughts #1 your art is super cool and unique, in a style all your own. #2 Lana Del Rey is awesome!!! And #3 I wish you and your new family all the happiness and success you’ve ever dreamed of.

    Warmly,
    David

  2. Thank you so much David.
    You have no idea how much your words mean and I give you props for knowing that if it came to it, you would choose being a father.

    I am so grateful and humbled by the messages of support and thanks i have been getting and i really appreciate this.

  3. Fernando, you are truly a beautiful person for sharing your story so openly. I hope that it will inspire others to change. Not a JW myself but have had some similar experiences as a result of a very dysfunctional family and my coming out. I wasn’t prepared for the emotional roller coaster that your story brought me on. I am so glad you found love in your life and are headed towards an amazing future with your eyes wide open. I wish the best for you.

  4. Wow your words mean so much.. thank you so much..
    It’s a daily struggle honestly but at the end of the day, we can only be us..so why not be 100% who we are.

    I hope you are enjoying a beautiful life. Dont forget you are in charge make it beautiful

  5. I really enjoyed your interview and it really impacted me to hear you describe the depression in the organization, all the while you’re supposed to be the happiest person on earth…I went though a lot of the same. I am so glad you were able to break free and live your life. Your family and kids are lucky to have you! Thanks for sharing!
    Lyndi

  6. Lyndi, thank you so much for your kind words!
    I hope you are at a point where you are no longer suffering with pretending or faking your happiness.

  7. My story (interview) with Mike is coming up soon 🙂 I checked out your Instagram and I’m the one with 2 long haired dauchsunds.

  8. Thank you so much @Fernando this is one of the first times I’ve heard myself I’m on BART freaking out.

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